I stared at the blinking cursor most of Sunday afternoon, trying to decide how to step forward onto the next set of stones that will lead through 2020.
I’m not new to blogging, and I met many of you in the hallways at Lipstick and Laundry almost eight years ago. We celebrated our imperfections, toe-dipped into a pool of vulnerability and laughed so we wouldn’t cry. The page is still active, but life has changed since my last entry in January 2019.
Since then, my kids emptied the nest, and my corporate job as a healthcare consultant has become a memory. A severance package replaced 18-hour travel days and fast-paced weeks. My first experience with a millennial job placement expert was humbling, and I was miffed with the recommendation to “remove any reference to years of service on the resume that might date you.” I guess 30 years of experience isn’t a good thing
Be careful what you wish for.
The pink slip package showed up in an e-mail after a scripted department teleconference. The fear bubbling in my belly surprised me and I was blindsided by worry, boredom, and feelings of inadequacy, rejection and what now?
I practice and teach yoga. As a student, I’m drawn to the back of the room where I breathe quietly, don’t take up space, and practice without flair. While teaching, I encourage breath, mindfulness, and self-compassion. In both roles, I often whisper to myself “Humble your warrior. Listen to your body. Pay attention to your breath. Be kind.”
2019 was the year of Humble Warrior and the application went beyond the yoga studio. A recognition that I’m not invincible and that vulnerability is not where I like to place my mat. The epiphany that it doesn’t help anyone when I act like I’m fine when I’m not. Even though I celebrate and love the imperfections of others, I do not tolerate any of it in myself.
Which brings me here. With you.
I am returning to the roots of who I was when I first graduated as a young dietitian and healthcare provider. I’m inviting you to do this with me in whatever way serves you best. Whether you chose to follow along quietly or contract with me for services, I’ll come to our conversations with kindness, a listening ear, and heart meant to help you harness your power.
I got you. Let me know how I can help.
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