Humble My Warrior

I stared at the blinking cursor most of Sunday afternoon, trying to decide how to step forward onto the next set of stones that will lead through 2020.

I’m not new to blogging, and I met many of you in the hallways at Lipstick and Laundry almost eight years ago. We celebrated our imperfections, toe-dipped into a pool of vulnerability and laughed so we wouldn’t cry. The page is still active, but life has changed since my last entry in January 2019.

Since then, my kids emptied the nest, and my corporate job as a healthcare consultant has become a memory. A severance package replaced 18-hour travel days and fast-paced weeks. My first experience with a millennial job placement expert was humbling, and I was miffed with the recommendation to “remove any reference to years of service on the resume that might date you.” I guess 30 years of experience isn’t a good thing?

I’ve been preparing for this job elimination for two years. I’d even manifested and hoped for it.

Be careful what you wish for.

The pink slip package showed up in an e-mail after a scripted department teleconference. The fear bubbling in my belly surprised me and I was blindsided by worry, boredom, and feelings of inadequacy, rejection and what now?

I practice and teach yoga. As a student, I’m drawn to the back of the room where I breathe quietly, don’t take up space, and practice without flair. While teaching, I encourage breath, mindfulness, and self-compassion. In both roles, I often whisper to myself “Humble your warrior. Listen to your body. Pay attention to your breath. Be kind.”

2019 was the year of Humble Warrior and the application went beyond the yoga studio. A recognition that I’m not invincible and that vulnerability is not where I like to place my mat. The epiphany that it doesn’t help anyone when I act like I’m fine when I’m not. Even though I celebrate and love the imperfections of others, I do not tolerate any of it in myself.

Which brings me here. With you.

I am returning to the roots of who I was when I first graduated as a young dietitian and healthcare provider. I’m inviting you to do this with me in whatever way serves you best. Whether you chose to follow along quietly or contract with me for services, I’ll come to our conversations with kindness, a listening ear, and heart meant to help you harness your power.

I got you. Let me know how I can help.

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Whether we’ve met before or this is our first interaction please introduce yourself in the comments below!

24 Comments on “Humble My Warrior

  1. My name is David. I started blogging in honor of the passing of a beloved aunt. I continued to try something new and discovered a universe of people I share with. Yoga was something I enjoyed years ago, an ashtanga teacher would open his home door to me 5:30 am daily. After a period of time he told me to continue alone, but that didn’t last sadly. Classes don’t interest me. Interested in hearing more of your story, and see what that leads.

    • Hi David,
      So happy to meet you here! I love the reason you started blogging – your aunt must have been truly special.
      Also happy to meet a fellow yoga lover – ashtanga is challenging! Did you memorize everything, too? I haven’t gone that far yet:)
      Looking forward to connecting with you. Thanks for being here.
      Michelle

  2. A very exciting new start after what sounds like a tough year, MM!!! I am doing my nursing training, have never done yoga in my life, but loved Pilates back when I could afford it.

    • Lizzi!! My dear friend – I am so happy to see you here.
      And I’m so proud of you and your nursing career. How far along are you?
      Also happy to see your new love – life changes us in the most wonderful ways ❤️

      • I am a year in and have three to go. It’s happening as an apprenticeship so I also work two days in my usual department (hence it taking a year longer than the normal nursing course) and they’re paying for it… otherwise I couldn’t do it at all. A fantastic opportunity.
        And yes…new love. I have a good feeling about it. I think we will last ❤️❤️❤️

  3. Hey kind lady, I hear a heart standing in her truth, your words sharing that inner love you have found. It is in there that it will glow…just do as you are doing and follow her light, she has many more heartfelt wisdom’s to share ❤️

    • Hi Mark!!

      Happy Summer to you. As always, so fantastic to hear from you – I’ve been removed from this space for almost a full year.

      Glad you could sense my open hearted approach – that’s exactly what I want to for each person I interact with.

      Drop me an email and let me know what’s happening in your world. I have missed talking to you!

  4. Love you girl! I know you’ll do great in this new path because you are the kindness, coolest person ever. I love your posts, and love how real and honest you are. My hubby is kind of doing the waiting/hoping for the severance option as well–knowing he wants to go because he’s semi-miserable, but not wanting to leave without getting anything for having worked 30 years there already. Hoping this new merger “lets him go” but afraid they won’t. Ha ha. It’s a painful place to be waiting in. I guess we’ll see what will happen.

    I do easy yoga with my daughter when I’m in the mood. I’m probably the most un-limber person on earth, and uncoordinated, but I like how yoga focuses me on posture and stuff…so I do the easy version of everything and really like when they just have me breathe and don’t make me hurt my body 🙂

    I’m excited to see your new posts here about wellness and everything. J

    • Love you right back, Char!

      I feel for you and your hubby. The waiting is excruciating and the final answer (in either direction) doesn’t bring a lot of relief … and that’s if you’re prepared for it. Sending you and your hubby tons of prayers and compassion.

      We need to get caught up!! You have a new book, right?!!

      I love that you do yoga and have discovered versions of the poses that are right for you – listening to your body and breathing are the first steps. I’d really like to visit with you about how you feel given your surgery a few years ago – as always, I’m sure I’d learn more from you than you learn from me ❤️

      Xoxoxo

      • Yes, limbo-land is icky. Thanks for your encouragement. And yes, I have a new book. Paperback is out, but ebook releases Jan 1–A Wrinkle in Forever. I’m pretty excited about this one. It was fun to write. And I feel great post-surgery & have nothing but praise for my surgeon. He did an excellent job. I’m careful not to put too much jarring on my hip now, so that helps. High impact jumping, running and stuff like that isn’t good for my joints. He encouraged biking, which I try to do a few times a week on my spin bike, and then I add in weights. I should do yoga more, but I only do it when my daughter’s and my schedules align (and when I’m not lazy) 🙂

  5. New beginnngs! And what an authentic path you’re taking. Love it!

    Allow me to reintroduce myself (very tongue in cheek). I’m Susan and I’m going through a most unexpected Kundalini Awakening. The past few years have been frankly brutal, and yet I’ve been moving through the experience, blogging as I can, mostly on Remembering My Divinity. Throughout my life, my relationship with food has been complicated, for most of my life being my drug of choice. These days I honor my body and have been working on making peace with food. Looking forward to following your new endeavor!

    • Susan!!! How are you ❤️❤️
      I’ve been learning from you for so many years and am forever grateful for your friendship.
      I finally understand Kundalini Awakening as well as the soul’s contracts. Thank you for finding me over here and for being such an amazing friend ❤️

      • Awww. I’m honored. Working in hypnosis has been an incredible way to connect with higher wisdom, and to create deep healing. To embody change easily. As for how am I? Kundalini is forcing inner change faster than is comfortable. It’s honestly been very tough for a few years and I’m still in the thick of it. That said, the way I see the world is without judgment most of the time. And my understanding of so many things is ever expanding. (I’ve been writing more on Remembering My Divinity these days).

  6. Hi Michelle. Great to find you in your new place. I have had that recommendation of “removing the years of experience on a resume” before.

    Lots of changes in my end. I “retired” from my previous job of almost 7 years to take a crossing guard position in my home village. It was a big gamble at 61, as I really loved my other job, and worked my up to being a staff writer for the company blog. They gave back a lot to the employees and even had yoga classes for us (which I loved). But the commute was taking years off my life.

    I made the decision hoping to do this crossing guard until maybe 70. Just heard that the village is getting an automated light and my position will become redundant once installed next spring. Life is very interesting at times.

    Wishing you all the success as you expand in to your nutrition and health coaching and yoga. Blessings to you and your love ones over the Christmas season. 😀🧘🏻‍♀️

    • Life is indeed interesting. We are told to view changes, automated lights, and retirement as opportunities for growth and exploration. Sometimes it’s just down right difficult isn’t it?

      I love that your other job had yoga – what a great balance for a runner like you.

      I’ll certainly be thinking about you as we head into 2020 – I feel like new opportunities are going to feather in all around you ❤️

      • Thank you so much Michelle. I so appreciate your kind words. The yoga was so amazing for opening up joints, which really made a difference during those long distance runs.

        I do believe there will be new opportunities will be coming in 2020. Thank you so much! ❤️

  7. Hi Michelle. Great to find you in your new place. I have had that recommendation of “removing the years of experience on a resume” before.

    Lots of changes in my end. I “retired” from my previous job of almost 7 years to take a crossing guard position in my home village. It was a big gamble at 61, as I really loved my other job, and worked my up to being a staff writer for the company blog. They gave back a lot to the employees and even had yoga classes for us (which I loved). But the commute was taking years off my life.

    I made the decision hoping to do this crossing guard until maybe 70. Just heard that the village is getting an automated light and my position will become redundant once installed next spring. Life is very interesting at times.

    Wishing you all the success as you expand in to your nutrition and health coaching and yoga. Blessings to you and your love ones over the Christmas season.

  8. Michelle, I love your new venture and wish you well! Isn’t it always the way? We forgive everyone’s imperfections but our own. I just signed up to follow and I’m looking forward to hearing more.

    • Helllooo dear friend! So happy to see you here. Thank you so much for signing up and following. I’m eager to get back into the bloggy-sphere and reconnect. How are you??

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